That's kind of a oxymoron of a title, but I promise you it is positive. I look back on 2013 and I was in many senses a failure, but that's ok. We all are at some point and as long as we learn something and are stronger in the end then life is making us better. I have learned that I can be my own worst enemy. I need to stop giving up on my dreams, and I need to be more realistic. So, as I start 2014, I have many less tangible goals. I hate intangible goals because then how can I asses them come December 31? It's simple, keep moving forward. By the way, I realize it's January 2, but who starts resolutions on a holiday? Not me! I consider January 2nd my first day.
So, what do I want to do this year? First, I want to realize a healthier me. It's starting with a WHOLE 30 this month, and moving toward not having such a diabolical relationship with food. I use food for many reasons other than nourishment and I want a better and less reliant relationship with food. I want to understand it for the only purpose it has, and that is nourishment. I don't need it to socialize, to console myself, or to distract myself. Whew! That's a big goal, but I have been down this road before and I think I can do it.
Second, I am going to continue my education toward becoming a PA. That may diverge into other roads, but I know I want a career in the health field, and I need to stop stalling here in my current job.
Third, I want to be a better me. It can look different through out the year, but each week, 52 of them, I am going to do a challenge. It should be fun and keep things interesting! This week's is to meal plan for the month :)! Fun, right? Maybe not, but I'll have something else to do next week :)
I like the idea of a new year. I know 80% of people don't stick to their resolutions, but January 1, or 2 in my book, starts us all afresh mentally and gives us a reason to keep TRYING to be better. And just because 80% fail, does that mean that the other 20% shouldn't try? Nope! We all should try and I am going to give it my best!
Cheers to another healthy and happy year :)!
A better today
Thursday, January 2, 2014
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Accountability
I am not a very good accountability partner for myself. Grrr, that's frustrating. So, here we are 11 months down the road. Eleven. That is a failure if I could ever describe one. But, I have a confession that I have been avoiding it. Like I said, I emotionally wasn't in a good place. I am not as depressed as I was and I have some exciting things I am working on. So, chalk one up to the positive column. I am starting this again, because I don't believe in New Year's resolutions. I believe in every changing goals. My goal in these winter months is to get back down to a size 4. It's happenin' baby!!! I just need to figure out how to make it happen. I need to figure out how to be accountable. Try number one (well really it`s like try number 11, but who's counting): Take pictures of everything that goes in my mouth. EVERYTHING?? As Lana would say...yuuuuup. Eww, I hate when I have super not fun accountability ideas. Here's to trying. I also am notoriously starting in the middle of the week! It makes me feel more accomplished by the end of the week. So, for the next 5 days I am going to take a picture of all nourishment that passes my lips, except water and chapstick, because I can't document that stuff.
Cheers to my camera being my new accountability partner for now!
Cheers to my camera being my new accountability partner for now!
Monday, January 14, 2013
Week 2/3
Hmmm, so week one went ok. I guess it was only 5 days, but I accomplished all my goals! Surprisingly, the hardest was not watching TV for a whole day. That's terrible. I am shamed it's that hard. In one of the books I am reading, I read a section last night that suggests in order for us to be happy we need to practice discipline. Quite the proposal, but the more I thought about it it made complete and resounding sense. So, I have decided this blog will be my accountability blog for myself. I want to set goals, that I will do my best disciplining myself to accomplish them and record my journey here.
After week one, came week two, and I'll be honest while I didn't completely flop on my face, I made quite the effort to. I watched way to much TV. I didn't get a whole lot done, and I ate out three or four times. Darn it! I did however start to paint my office and took down the wall paper. I will also note, I didn't blog or set any goal for the week. Do you think that's where I went wrong!? Bingo!!!
I am going to set goals weekly. They are so much easier to stick to, and even if they are longer goals, I am going to reiterate them and report on them weekly. Whew! Now at least I know kind of where I am headed...
This week I am not going to watch any TV. What!?? Wait, you can't be serious! Oh, but I am. After all, it's only a week. So, what am I going to do with my free time? I'm glad you asked. I am going to seriously pick up my house. I am going to continue working on painting my office. Side note: it was ALL mint green. By all I mean ceiling, trim, walls, doors, you name it. Ugh, it makes me grumpy and I am changing it. In the mean time the mint green makes the grey color I picked look like purple. Also don't like. So with all my free time I can make it look perdy. Also, I am going to eat paleo for 4 weeks. It won't be that hard except I have decided to seriously up the ante I won't be eating nightshades, and I will REALLY try not to eat very many starchy vegetables. In essence I might be starving myself, but with this one-week-at-a-time bit I can change it after a couple weeks I seem to be failing on all cylinders. I will be going to church this week (might have to be Sunday, but since I don't think I'll blog until Monday, let's consider my weeks going Monday through Sunday). Lastly, I am going to not do personal things on work time. That's going to be a rough one as well, but I think I will do my best!
Whew, I believe that's 1,2,3,4,5 goals. Its a lot, but gotta set my sights on the stars, baby.
See you in a week!
After week one, came week two, and I'll be honest while I didn't completely flop on my face, I made quite the effort to. I watched way to much TV. I didn't get a whole lot done, and I ate out three or four times. Darn it! I did however start to paint my office and took down the wall paper. I will also note, I didn't blog or set any goal for the week. Do you think that's where I went wrong!? Bingo!!!
I am going to set goals weekly. They are so much easier to stick to, and even if they are longer goals, I am going to reiterate them and report on them weekly. Whew! Now at least I know kind of where I am headed...
This week I am not going to watch any TV. What!?? Wait, you can't be serious! Oh, but I am. After all, it's only a week. So, what am I going to do with my free time? I'm glad you asked. I am going to seriously pick up my house. I am going to continue working on painting my office. Side note: it was ALL mint green. By all I mean ceiling, trim, walls, doors, you name it. Ugh, it makes me grumpy and I am changing it. In the mean time the mint green makes the grey color I picked look like purple. Also don't like. So with all my free time I can make it look perdy. Also, I am going to eat paleo for 4 weeks. It won't be that hard except I have decided to seriously up the ante I won't be eating nightshades, and I will REALLY try not to eat very many starchy vegetables. In essence I might be starving myself, but with this one-week-at-a-time bit I can change it after a couple weeks I seem to be failing on all cylinders. I will be going to church this week (might have to be Sunday, but since I don't think I'll blog until Monday, let's consider my weeks going Monday through Sunday). Lastly, I am going to not do personal things on work time. That's going to be a rough one as well, but I think I will do my best!
Whew, I believe that's 1,2,3,4,5 goals. Its a lot, but gotta set my sights on the stars, baby.
See you in a week!
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
A better me today
I am starting this for me. Not because I am selfish, but I just want to start this for myself because I am at a place that if I don't start taking care of myself, I won't ever be able to take care of anyone else. I honestly don't know where I am at, but it's not good, I am not healthy, and I am not doing better every day. So, here I am wanting a new and better today than yesterday. This is where I am starting. I am going to use this place to create a better me in order to be better for others and do better for those I care about in my life. It's not about physical, mental, or spiritual health... it's about all of the above and I know I need work in all of these areas. I am not even sure which one I am going to start with, but I am going to start somewhere.
So, how about a goal in each category each week. This week I am only going to eat out once- starting tomorrow because I already had lunch at Wendy's. Oops. One night I am not going to watch ANY TV. I know this sounds ridiculous, but again this is about me and I am really starting from the beginning. Lastly, I am going to go to church on Saturday at 5:00pm. Whew! I can do it and it's going to be for a better life overall.
So, how about a goal in each category each week. This week I am only going to eat out once- starting tomorrow because I already had lunch at Wendy's. Oops. One night I am not going to watch ANY TV. I know this sounds ridiculous, but again this is about me and I am really starting from the beginning. Lastly, I am going to go to church on Saturday at 5:00pm. Whew! I can do it and it's going to be for a better life overall.
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